...and quotes...

I like quotes. I use to write different quotes in my journal as a source of inspiration.  I think a good quote can lift your spirits, open a door, give you closure, show you a different perspective, inspire you, and motivate you. I'm in need of some motivation, inspiration, perspective change. I'm searching for a catalyst.

This is one of my favorite quotes and how I felt for most of my 20's:

“For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, or a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.”

- Alfred D. Souza

This one is probably better than telling someone to SUCK IT UP. :

“Be miserable. Or motivate yourself. Whatever has to be done, it’s always your choice.” – Wayne Dyer



This is what I have on the first page of a journal I started last year.

“We write to taste life twice, in the moment and in retrospection”

 -Anais Nin



Oh Bruce you are very insightful on my inability to finish creative projects:

“If you spend too much time thinking about a thing, you’ll never get it done.” – Bruce Lee



I think we're prone to dwelling on the past and the what if's but we just have to acknowledge our choices and make different ones in the future. Let it go.


“Don’t let the past steal your present” – Cherralea Morgen 

Simply put:

"If you want to change the way people respond to you, change the way you respond to people."

Timothy Leary


My last quote for the day:


"There's a difference between interest and commitment. When you're interested in doing something, you do it only when circumstance permit. When you're committed to something, you accept no excuses, only results." Art Turock

Welcome Back

After two weeks of vacation/inventory I am back at work.  Woo!  I love the feeling of getting back to work after being away for awhile.  Everything feels "shiny and new".  As expected we were VERY BUSY!  So far we haven't had people complain that we were closed for two weeks which is typical of our first day back.  My customers really believe that we have an obscure schedule that seems to change monthly. 

Today I love running

Today, I love running.  

@ mile 1 - What a beautiful day for a run.  Look at all these people out today.

@ mile 2 - Chatting it up, this is good.  I like having friends to run with.
 
@ mile 3 - I'm not "loving" the run at the moment but hey check that out, it's the ocean. Pretty. My shoulders are cramping. Shake it out. Relax.

@ mile 4 - Hey, check that out we're coming up on good old Encinitas.  This is nice, one more mile and we can turn around. Shake out those shoulders. RELAX!

@ mile 5 - Umm, what the fuck? Toes? Hello? Why are you tingly and numbish? Eh, blah. Time for a bathroom break and to stretch out every part of my body.

@ mile 6 - Toes are still numbish. Shoulders are still tight. I must continue the small talk and gaze ahead for some distraction.

@ mile 7 - I think someone turned my legs into lead weights. Extraordinarily hard to pick them up. Must go faster. Do not stop. Must make it to the sign.

@ mile 8 - This damn road is really freaking long!  My body is extremely TIGHT!!! My feet are cramping. Stupid shoulders need to relax. Fuck you road! I will take you down!

@ mile 9 - Just grinding it out. I'm freaking hungry.  We've passed at least 5 breakfast restaurants. These Shot Blocks aren't making the cut, maybe they can make meat flavored ones.  On second thought, maybe not.

@ mile 10 - Me and you road. It is just me and you! My feet are sore. My shoulders are tight. My legs feel heavy and my ankles ache.  I don't have time to chat. I going to get this done!


I repeat.

Today, I love running.

Spartacus

I just discovered a new show to watch:



I'm happy that we can watch all the episodes On Demand because I still haven't acclimated to waiting a week for each episode. The show gets better with each episode and the large amounts of nudity don't hurt either. The second season "Spartacus: Gods of the Arena" starts Jan 21 and is a prequel to "Spartacus: Blood and Sand".   I'm sad because the actor, Andy Whitfield, who plays Spartacus was diagnosed with cancer and will not be returning to the series.

What are you reading?

This is what I'm reading:

1. Never After - 4 short stories based on fairy tale weddings with a twist.  I call it the anti-fairy tale book.  I use to love fairy tales but I realized that real love is not like a fairy tale, then I said fuck fairy tales.   
2. Got Fight? - If you want to know what it's like to be an MMA fighter this is a good book to read. Forrest has a funny take on every part of being a fighter.

     
      3. Domino: The Book of Decorating - Great ideas with lots of pictures.  A good place to start if
          you find yourself lost in the decorating world.

suck it up and run

I miss running.

I miss wanting to run.

I miss pushing myself when I run.

I miss the connection I had with running.

I miss loving the run.

I ran today and it was underwhelming and eye opening at the same time.

I realized that I have low expectations of my running performance.

I allow myself to under perform constantly.

I have three half marathons this year and I have no drive to improve.

I say that I want to be faster BUT I am not putting in the work to become faster.

I have developed a whatever happens attitude which is great in certain aspects of my life but not when it comes to training for half marathons.

I have chosen to run half marathons because I like the feeling of accomplishment, but if I don't have the commitment to train I should just stay a casual runner.

I am in serious need of a "suck it up" and get training speech.